Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Baby what?

So, today was so great.
Uneventful for the most part, but what made it great?
I got to see my 2nd Mom!!
(As in my best of the bestest's momma, the ones who live in FL)

Her best friend still lives up here, too & so she is in town visiting her & we all had lunch today & I loved it.
The only downside is when I got home, I teared up & am finding it hard to hold back tears even now, because I miss my best friend.

The timing of this was just right.
It's been over a year since I've seen here and just a week or so ago I was thinking about them and how I miss them so much & it's been too long since I've been down, etc. etc. So,...this was just what I needed.

We talked about many things and naturally moved to the baby topic.
Which reminded me that I haven't updated here in a bit.
Mainly because there really is no update.

I still struggle with the decisions to make.
I still struggle with everyone's advice, it's all the same.
I don't bring this subject up to anyone who doesn't already know. It's just easier that way.
Everyone's advice of just forget/don't stress about it is the one thing that has been the hardest and the easiest thing to do.
I had a bad-ish day not too long ago which I probably could have gotten a lot off my chest had I felt like talking/typing about it. But I didn't. I let it motion through my brain and go away. Just easier not to deal with right now. I want positivity and thinking about that for me, right now at least, isn't positive.

I have a couple of things that I'm hoping can happen in the next coming months that will give my health a little boost, even though -for the most part- I'm in good health, there are definitely things that can improve.

So, ya know...in case anyone was still curious to know about my baby stuffs, here's a mini-not-really-update. lol
I don't really have much to talk about today, which is why I'm posting at 9pm.
But hell, here's something, right?!

Anyway, tomorrow is Weigh-In Wed. I'll be back to tell you that I've gained all my weight back! WOOHOO!

I now am even more ready to get my ass back to Florida to see my 2nd family. Like, now!
But for now, I'll just have to settle for texting my bestest and then whining to my hubby.

Welp, I gots budgets to do, bills to write out & a list to work on!
See yuns tomorrow!


  1. So nice that you got to see her for a little bit!

  2. This is my first post on your page-- dropping in by way of the Sunday Social-- I haven't read much but I can only imagine that you are trying to conceive. I have been for the past nine months and have finally given up-- I feel like something may be wrong with me and sadly, my mother-- the nurse for YEARS, told me the other day that I am too old and my health issues probably won't let me get pregnant. I almost died-- in fact, I think I did a little inside. I had my first and only child, Miller, in 2005.. he was full term and stillborn. My biggest fear is that I will never have another child and that alone sends me into a tailspin that I can never slow down from. I have always dreamed of being a Mother. Like I said-- I need to read more of your blog.. maybe we are on the same mission. Maybe we can offer each other support.
    I pray every day for faith in my journey and that I will never give up and I will be blessed with a child again..

  3. PS- where in FL are you? I'm in beautiful Pensacola, FL. Born and raised.


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