Oh shit, hey Monday...

So, even though this won't post until whatever time I choose to schedule it, here I am at like 2-ish am. Baking. Thanksgiving dinner numero uno is tomorrow..err..today & alas, we do put the PRO in PROCRASTINATE & we must live up to our own expectations.
lol

So, how about this past weekend??
How bout them Dawgs?
And them damn Falcons? Broncos?
How bout them AMA's?

No but really, let's talk about all that shizz...

This weekend was okay. Not bad but not wonderful either.
My attitude was in full swing. Dammit.

Saturday:
Those Dawgs. Oh, such a bittersweet game Saturday. It was Senior Day & it was the LAST game that all 28 of our Seniors will play Between the Hedges. Including Aaron Murray, our beloved QB. He's going to be missed so much. We played Kentucky, which most people know that UK isn't really strong in the Football area (they're way better in basketball.) So it was a blowout basically. & It was a blackout, meaning fans were told to wear black. These are amazing, I love it. My Gurley man, while he's not a senior-I have to mention him, he did awesome. Murray was able to toss passes to I think at least 2 or 3 other seniors for TD's. It was just...great. But then...Aaron was sacked & didn't come up very well. Our boy, 2nd to last game with UGA, ever, & he tore his ACL. :( He's done for the season, which means he doesn't get to play against Georgia Tech, our in-state rivals. I'm so, so, sad for him. That was an emotional game for him & for him to end up injured breaks my heart. He's having surgery this week & I'm hoping that this doesn't hurt him too bad come Draft time. We love you, Aaron Murray, I am honored to have been at the game where you first played as Starter QB back in 2010 & ever since then, you've made us Dawg fans so proud! I hope recovery from this is swift and smooth & that you soar in the NFL and in life in general. Once A Dawg, Always A Dawg.

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Sunday:
The Falcons lost again, I didn't get to watch this time though. I'm not a fairweather fan. I love them regardless. I'll say two things though. 1. They are hurting from getting ride of Abraham & yes, even Michael Turner & a few other key players. & 2. I feel this is some weird sign that they don't need to spend 1.2 BILLION dollars on a new stadium, like they are planning to do. The Georgia Dome is JUST FINE.
The Broncos... -___- The Broncos HAD that game. There are many, many times where they just didn't get it done. The game still ended up in OT though and, because of a special teams mistake, they basically set up a nice field goal position for the Pats to take the W. WHY?! I'm annoyed by it. And I think Peyton is too. Actually I'm sure the whole damn team is. But it's whatever I freakin' guess. Again, I still love them too.

The AMA's.
Anyone watch those? If you follow me on the bird, chances are you saw me blowing up your news feed.
I Loved 1D's performance, DUH! I actually liked Lady Gaga's toned down performance. Ariana Grande had a great performance. To me, Nelly made. my. night. Not only did I get to hear FL/GA Line & him sing Cruise remix, but then they broke into "Ride Wit Me". OHMAHGAH, I may or may not have teared up a little. ... Is that weird? Idgaf if it is or not. I absolutely loved it. I mean SO. MUCH. I LOVED JT's performance. I thought Kesha looked beautiful in her kind of toned down cowgirl look for Pit Bull's performance. I like Kesha anyway. Didn't care for Miley's performance. I like TLC's performance, I just don't like that they had a fill in (Lil Mama) for Left Eye, I hoped they would do a hologram of Left Eye, but as a couple of people pointed out, it would have been too painful. I mean, think about it, it really would have been a sad thing. Luke Bryan was amazing -as always. Imagine Dragons were really great, I'd love to see them live.
Winners are as follows: (in case you didn't watch)

*ARTIST OF THE YEAR- Taylor Swift

*ICON AWARD- Rihanna

*NEW ARTIST OF THE YEAR PRESENTED BY KOHL'S- Ariana Grande 

*SINGLE OF THE YEAR- Florida Georgia Line Featuring Nelly, "Cruise"

*FAVORITE MALE ARTIST – POP/ROCK- Justin Timberlake   

*FAVORITE FEMALE ARTIST – POP/ROCK- Taylor Swift

*FAVORITE BAND, DUO OR GROUP – POP/ROCK- One Direction

*FAVORITE ALBUM – POP/ROCK- One Direction, "Take Me Home"

*FAVORITE MALE ARTIST – COUNTRY- Luke Bryan

*FAVORITE FEMALE ARTIST – COUNTRY- Taylor Swift

*FAVORITE BAND, DUO or GROUP - COUNTRY- Lady Antebellum

*FAVORITE ALBUM - COUNTRY- Taylor Swift, "Red"

*FAVORITE ARTIST – RAP/HIP-HOP- Macklemore & Ryan Lewis

*FAVORITE ALBUM – RAP/HIP-HOP- Macklemore & Ryan Lewis, "The Heist"

*FAVORITE MALE ARTIST – SOUL/R&B- Justin Timberlake

*FAVORITE FEMALE ARTIST – SOUL/R&B- Rihanna

*FAVORITE ALBUM – SOUL/R&B- Justin Timberlake, "The 20/20 Experience"

*FAVORITE ARTIST - ALTERNATIVE ROCK- Imagine Dragons

*FAVORITE ARTIST - LATIN- Marc Anthony 

*FAVORITE ARTIST - ELECTRONIC DANCE MUSIC (EDM)- Avicii 

*FAVORITE ARTIST - ADULT CONTEMPORARY- Maroon 5

*FAVORITE ARTIST - CONTEMPORARY INSPIRATIONAL- Matthew West 

*TOP SOUNDTRACK- "Pitch Perfect"

 

I sound like an absolute Taylor Swift hater, and I'm not completely that. But I think some others should have won in the some of categories that she was in. Like favorite female Country artist, she was up against Carrie Underwood & Miranda Lambert. I may be partial, but Miranda should have won that, in my personal opinion. I don't agree with Rihanna winning the first ever Icon Award, or maybe it was Bill Maher calling her "the voice of our time". Either way I don't agree. Again, I like her, but I just don't agree. I didn't care for Macklemore's acceptance speech, no need to bring up the Trayvon Martin case. Again, my personal opinion.

Imagine Dragons won the Alt. Rock category, which I won't disagree with. They are good stuff.

What I do not agree with is this whole "Pop/Rock" shit. What even is that? Every one in those categories I like but they. are. not. rock. They are pop. What the fack is so wrong with just calling it Pop? I'll tell you what (I think), the producers and what have you are covering their asses for not including rock. Didn't work. I don't know who they are trying to fool. Rock isn't dead, there is still a large demographic for it.

Angers me.

 

But anyway, enough about that. It's now been almost two hours & I've made a whopping ONE pie, I've also managed to overfill said pie before baking it, making a mess on the stove. End result looks good. So I guess we'll see what the verdict is later. It's my first time making a pecan pie. So wish me luck. Anywho, I also dropped my mom's computer...because I suck. It made me sick to my stomach & I'm pretty sure made my anxiety kick in to full swing. Anxiety at 3am, after drinking a beer & being tired, yea...no good. Oh AND I was getting ready to make my other two pies when I realize, OH YAY, I forgot to get one of the ingredients at the grocery store. BUST. And now that "morning" is quickly approaching I'm realizing that I also have to squeeze in time to get away to go pay a bill that's due today.

I think I need a nap.

 

SO, Goodnight, Good Morning, Happy Monday.

I'm taking a break from MFP for the most part today, because it's going to be ridiculous to log ALL of that food. Or I may log lunch and stuff & just leave dinner off.

 

Anyway, this is a week of eating, I have a dinner tonight & one on Thanksgiving day & I am ready for both! Just want to say, I hope that any of you who are working on weight loss can enjoy Thanksgiving without being too hard on yourself. Loosen the reigns just a bit. If you don't think you'll have self control & you're worried about falling completely off the wagon assign someone to call you out if you start stuffing your face too much. (Just don't get mad at them when they do). Otherwise, enjoy your turkey coma & pick yourself back up on Friday (or Sat---Sun---Monday) ;)

How was your weekend? Watch any Football? If so, how did your team do? Watch the AMA's? What'd you think?
Raise your hand if you are ready for Thanksgiving! Family time & food! MMM<

 

Didn't I say I needed a nap?...

Later!

♥♥♥

Brandy

**Midnight Memories (One Direction's third album) is now out on iTunes, which means it's probably now also on Amazon & will be in stores today! BUY IT! I'll be getting my copy from Target if not today then definitely in the next couple of days. :-)

5 Things Tag!

Jordan tagged me in this 5 Question Tag thing & I love it. She & I have talked a lot in the past week & it's crazy how many similarities we have. Another that I just realized while reading her post like this was that she mentioned that she was that girl on Myspace that did like a million survey bulletins, and so did I! I don't know why I loved doing them so much, but I did. haha. So, I love things like this... so here are my answer to the 5 questions Jordan asked...

 

1. What artist/song/album do you have on repeat right now?

Ohh my God... I'm so all over the place with music (if any of you haven't noticed music=life to me.) I typically love a broad spectrum of music & I pride myself on that. But, let's see...here lately I'm on a Fall Out Boy kick. Or Luke Bryan (especially "That's My Kind Of Night"--obsessed--). There have been a lot of country songs in my head lately. And there are no complaints about it at all.

 

2. If you could see one artist/band perform before you die, who would it be?

Shit! Um...I honestly don't know. I feel pretty fortunate to have been able to see most of the bands/artists that I've wanted to...and besides I couldn't honestly never pick just one without really really thinking about it.

Actually,...I will say someone. Eminem. Point, blank, period!

 

3. What is one thing you have worked towards this year? Would you say it was a success?

Finding a job & no. I suck at job hunting & lack motivation, so once I get rejected (ignored) by so many places I lose the drive to look, so I stop for a while. lol It sucks. Bad. BUT, I'm still trying so that does count for something. :-)

 

4. If you could go back in time, which age would you want to repeat? Why?

Oh wow. Ummm...That's hard. I would almost say 13. I would change one thing & one thing only & I'll not mention it on here.

 

5. If money weren't an issue, would you live somewhere else? Where?

If money weren't an issue, I would live in my own place. Does that count as somewhere else? lol I don't think I would ever move out of my town, or not permanently. I love my town (just not a lot of the people.) But anyway, I would honestly say if money weren't an issue I feel like I would honestly just do extended vacations. A month or here or there. Maybe Nasvhille, somewhere in FL, London? Hell I don't know. I guess the short answer to the actual question would be no I wouldn't move out of my town.

 

I'm a rambler, can't help it.

 

 

Okay, I'm tagging....

 

Karla @ Forever Newly Wedded

Erin @ Love, Fun and Football

Jessica @ Dream Moore

Holly @ Where We Can Live Like Jack & Sally

Erin @ She's A Big Star

Stephanie @ Not Entirely Perfect

Kayla @ It's Kayla Layla

Helene @ Helene In Between

Sarah @ Venus Trapped in Mars

Kayla @ My Kind Of Yellow

 

And you too!

If you'd like to participate you can answer in the comment or make your own post! If you do, let me know, I'd love to read your answers! :-)

 

And your questions are...

 

1. If you could have dinner or hang out with any 3 people, dead or alive, who would you choose?

 

2. What is one (or more) song(s) or song lyric(s) that has meaning to you?

 

3. Is there anywhere you would love to vacation or visit but have not or will not? If so, where and why?

 

4. If you could choose (with money not being a factor) what career or job would you love to do or attempt to do?

 

5. What 5 songs will you never get tired of hearing? Any particular reason? (I'm sure there are more but, what would be a top 5)

 

Happy Thursday, lovelies!

One week 'til Thanksgiving!♥

 

♥♥♥

Brandy

WIW 11.20.13

Guess what? No change in weight. I'd prefer at least a small loss but, I'll take it.

Working out...
Last week, I did Mon-Thurs didn't do Fri.,Sat or Sunday. I didn't do Monday because I've messed my sleep schedule up. SO, I did yesterday & plan on doing tonight, tom. & Fri...mayyybe Saturday and Sunday depending on what's going on.

I'm gonna see how I do this week with staying on this workout train, so far I'm doing cardio, arms and legs (or what my freakin knees can handle). Buttttt, I need to get some ab workout squeezed back in. Some crunches at least.
I'm still only doing 2 miles on the treadmill. Takes me about 38 or so minutes and that's walking most of the time. I still can't handle too much jogging or running just yet. Shit's a struggle for me but I'm chalking it upto being so out of shape right now. If it doesn't get easier then I'll chalk it up to maybe running just isn't my thang! lol

And I tried squats again last night and could still only do about 20. I did 10 regular and 10 goblet squats (which are basically just sumo squats while holding a kettlebell).
I'm going to so a little reading to see if there are some things I can do for my knees.
Also, I think I responded to everyone last week, if not, know that I appreciate all the advice.
The overall consensus looks to be that I need new shoes, and to maybe be properly fitted.
Which is true, my shoes are old & ready to be retired. There were lots of other suggestions & I'm gonna keep note of all of them, but I'm gonna start out with new shoes because like I said, I've been needing them anyway. ;-)

But, we'll see.
I feel alright, or I'll say good. I won't say great yet. Ask me again in a week. I KNOW I won't see instant results, but I also know that I should start feeling better soon, and that's what I'm waiting on. Even though I'm not pushing myself too hard, I kind of am mentally and that's making it more miserable than it already is. haha.
Anywhooo..

weight:
Last week: 160.5
Today 160.5
Like I said, nooo change.
:-)

Aaaand I'm gonna leave you all with a picture of Sugar from last night (if you follow my IG, you've seen it already.)

Excuse the blur, I was actually walking on the treadmill... She's silly and love to have attention.

Oh & HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GIRL STEPHANIE! (Again! ;-) )

♥♥♥
Brandy

I want to write a song...

I'm not saying I could be some kind of lyrical genius.
I won't even say I'm a poet or anything.
I can't sing.
I wouldn't be able to put a beat together for a demo, or whatever.
But, I do. I want to write a song. Or two.

I have several thoughts that pop into my head that I think might work in one.
I'm observant, so even though I may not write about my own happenings, I find inspiration from others.

My fears (if I were to actually try):
-There are so many genres, so many musicians, etc. that there are a long of songs that seems so unoriginal. I'd probably fall into that unoriginal category.
- Having lyrics that are too similar to already existing songs.
-I never have (can't) write music (or play music for that matter). Or sing. Both of which are usually helpful when songwriting.

So why do I even want to?
The challenge of it, to challenge myself. I like writing but I honestly haven't really written since I was in school. I've lost my touch with it. I was never amazing at it. But I could write a poem or short story. Of course, this was all back in my school days, so criteria and all has changed & something that was good then can be shit now.
But I've kind of wanted to get back into writing a little. It's not a SUPER passion or anything, but it can be fun and therapeutic & when you have a head full of thoughts or whatever the hell else is floating around in there, it's good to get them out.

It's not like I'm wanting or expecting to write a hit & have a label pick it up & an artist bring it to life. (Although, let's be honest, that'd be pretty awesome, amirite?!) I just want to see if I can even do it. To see if  I can basically write a poem that can be sang. haha.

It's something to think about.

So, as I sit here thinking about music, I'm mean it's almost always on my mind.
Songs. Lyrics. Instruments. Beats.

About those songs, and those lyrics...
I was wondering...
What makes a good song?

Amazing lyrics? Storytelling? Slow ballad-y feel? Fast paced and dance-y? Rhyming? Not rhyming? Long? Short? Funny and witty? The types of instruments used?
All of the above.
None of the above...

For me, it's all of that.
All of it, and sometimes none of it.

There are songs for every mood, for every emotion, for every occasion.
And I love that.

What about you? What makes a good song to you? What are some of your favorite songs and/or lyrics?

♥♥♥
Brandy

WIW-11.13.13. I have a few questions...

Well. I worked out for the first time in MONTHS on Monday. It was a lot, but not a lot. Or maybe it was a lot & I'm just down playing it, I don't know.
Here's what I did:
-2 miles on the treadmill (in about 36 minutes- I feel like that's good for someone who is out of shape!)
- 40 triceps extensions (behind the head) w/ 3lb dumbbell
- 30 arm raises -to the side- 3lb dumbbell each side (6lbs)
- 10 Elbow squeezes
- 20 Squats
- 16 lunges
- 40 calf raises
- 50 second wall sit
- 20 kettle bell swings (7lb)
- 30 second plank
baby steps, folks, baby step. It sounds like a lot (hell it looks like a lot) but I'm start with small weights to build my strength back up & I'm sure there are a couple of things that I don't do in correct form, but again, baby steps.
And mind you I did this all while cramping (I'm sure you wanted to know that), but working out does help with it.

A couple of issues & questions.
1.  My boobs just don't like to stay down. I was wearing a sports bra, cami, and a l/s shirt & anytime I got to a light job I couldn't do it for very long. When you have big boobs if f'kin hurts to run for too long, REALLY! My solution so far is that I bought another bra & am going to double bra it (plus the cami & shirt). My question here is, any of you other well blessed ladies have any suggestion for keeping your girls under control? I didn't jumping jacks and jump roping back when I was working out last (about 5 months ago) and I don't remember if they were this crazy. Or maybe I was just hyper aware Monday.

2. My knees we hurting. I don't have knee problems or bad knees really & so I don't think I've ever had this issue. My knees were lined up with my shoulders and my feet here straight ahead. Still, is it possible that I was somehow standing wrong while doing my squats? I know it's been a good 5 or so months since I last worked out, BUT, it had been years before that & I don't remember my knees having that issue 5 months ago, so I don't think it was that. I don't know.

3. Shin splints. I've had them before. Multiple times. They hurt, thankfully the pain didn't last though. Is there anything I can do to lessen the chance of getting them so quickly?

I shocked my body just a bit, haha. Not in a bad way. I didn't get sick or anything & I stayed hydrated throughout. I was just shakey afterward. Pretty sure my body was like, "WHAT. THE. FUCK are you doing? and why?" lol But it felt great & I still don't know where it came from. But I have an idea. I had a bit of a breakdown the other day & needed somewhere to channel my thoughts.

I didn't workout on yesterday because those cramps from Monday were about 20x's worse. But I did do a little bit of shopping so I could get out of the house, so walking counts for something!

Speaking of shopping, I treated myself just a little & while doing so I bought a journal and am going to use it as a eating/exercise journal. Even though I have MFP & this, I wanted to be able to write it all down, what I won't being doing in my written journal is calorie counting (I'll let MFP take care of that).

I do plan on working out today, cramps or not. Even if it's just some time on the treadmill. :-)

Also, want to Thank Jordan, Karla, & KellyAnne , and my bestest Manda for encouragement & routing me on, on IG the other day! It all made me smile.

Now to the weight..I don't really expect a loss, in fact I wouldn't be surprised if there is a bit of a gain + right now the bloating I have is unreal (mother nature is seriously torturing me right now) so...here we go...

Last week: 161.4 (even though I didn't do a WIW on here, I still weighed in & logged it on paper)
This week: 160.5
Down 0.9
..Okay so better than I thought, it's a loss & I'll take it. I'm actually surprised it's lower. lol

Last little tidbit, the songs I listened to while on the treadmill:
1. Fall Out Boy- My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark
2. My Chemical Romance- Helena
3. Seether & Amy Lee- Broken
4. Secondhand Serenade- Fall For You
5. Paramore- Emergency
6. Jessie J- Do It Like A Dude
7. Alterbridge- Rise Today
8. Paramore- Fences
9. Framing Hanley- Photographs & Gasoline

(I just left my MP3 on shuffle & skipped songs that just didn't fit my mood at the moment)

Well, that's that!

Lovins!
♥♥♥
Brandy

Holiday brain & blog Christmas gift swap...

Just thinking of all the planning I have to do with my mom's birthday, thanksgiving and then Christmas makes my brain hurt.

 

I'm hoping to hit up Target and Walmart to maybe pick up some stuff already, or to at least look around and get more ideas. (Sales papers are great and all, but they really don't help all that much.)

I got Christmas money from my granny and ideas for some of the grandkids so far so I can start on her shopping anytime now, too.

I also need to pick up a few things for myself.

 

I still have to figure something out for my moms birthday, but first I have to figure out her plans.

And then Thanksgiving, which happens to be right before her birthday this year. I kind of want to go ahead and decide when and what we're gonna be eating and start getting what we can already get for that.

Then back to Christmas. Sheesh.

Speaking of. Is anyone hosting a blog gift swap thing? I kind of thought about participating in one, maybe.

 

I need to also start scoping out black Friday deals and decide if I'm going to save any shopping for then, that will also help me decide if I'm even gonna go Black Friday shopping. I can't even lie, every time I've went I've never really needed anything. Just more of a tagalong. I hate the crowds, but the people watching is fun/funny and there is just something about being in a mall or store in the middle of the night when you're technically "not supposed to be".

I mean, aren't you just so excited for this? Yikes!

And we can't forget Cyber Monday!
Am I the only one who is annoyed by the fact that a lot of stores have started opening on Thanksgiving Evening? I think they should at least wait til midnight.

Also, I'm thinking about watching the Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade...why? Because Fall Out Boy is performing, that's why. (I've never watched it before- shhh) What can I say, I love music.

 

Has anyone ever been to the restaurant Which Wich?! (random, I know) I think I have heard of it before, but I have never been. It sounds really good though. I may have to go there. (Yay for wanting to try new stuff.)

 

Okay, I'm out!

♥♥♥

B

Leave it all and run...

Oh how I wanted to do that.

So much weighing to heavy on my head and on my heart.
The same things as always, of course.

It's pretty sad when you get the chance for some alone time over the weekend. A chance to just be, even if just for a little bit, and you come out worse than before.

Who wakes up, rolls over and just lays in bed thinking and crying?
I was just so ready for my husband to be home.
But, even once he got here I couldn't shake my ugly attitude.
It wasn't even directed towards anyone in particular.
I'm just hateful. And that may actually be putting it mildly.
I don't like when it upset the people around me and it upset D.
He ended up going to another room for a little while to let me kind of calm down.
And that upset me, that I was being so mean, not to him, but just...negative.

It's pretty bad when you're putting up your laundry (which I'm pretty sure is the very thing I was complaining about at the time) and you just wonder how easy it would be to sneak away.
I wondered if I could just go out my door and walk around bag and jump in my car and leave before anyone had a chance to make it to the front porch. I thought about leaving my phone as well.
But then I thought about how I couldn't do that. For several reasons. For starters, if Doug ever did that to me I would be LIVID.
And in hindsight, I don't want to worry him or my parents.
I don't even know where I would go. It's ridiculous.
So, I just sat in bed. Thinking. Which is what got me in this frame of mind.
It's pretty bad when you think that maybe you need to consider therapy.
I feel like if I ever went to therapy I'd just cry during my entire first appointment.
You ever picture or act things out in your head as you think about them? Yea that's what I pictured.

It just sucks because there is SO much in my life to be happy about.
It's very confusing because I can have great days, and yet I'm so unhappy all at the same time.
That façade.
"I put on my daily façade but then I just end up getting hurt again, by myself."
Only, it's not always a façade, it's not always false. I can genuinely be all smiles all day, but deep down, I'm not smiling.
It's me, it's all me.
I'm the problem.
I'm also the only one who can fix it.
I don't know how.
I don't know what to do, where to start.
I don't fully know who I am.
Over the past couple of years I've started soul searching again, because I did lose myself.
I don't think I was who I thought I was, it just didn't suit.
The problem is, soul searching leads to really soul searching. And a part of me isn't good, or happy, what the hell ever word you want to use.
It sucks. It does. But, it's there.



♥

My niece kind of made me paranoid of drinking.

That's weird to say isn't it?

There is a slight paranoia when it comes to drinking and not knowing if you're pregnant.
I think that may be the case for most women (who may have babies on the brain).
Like, my nephews mother had drank a good bit on New Years Eve and I think maybe a week later found out she was pregnant. A friend of mine found out she was pregnant while she was hungover. (Both kids are fine, might I add, I'm not trying to throw either of the moms under the bus, just pointing out that this actually happens.)
I'm sure plenty of people have drank, if not gotten drunk, sometime relatively close to before they found out they were pregnant. I mean, if you don't know and you don't suspect that you are, then you don't know not to drink.

As if that's not enough to make you slightly paranoid about drinking.

Then there are stories and instances that are similar to the story about my niece.
There is a reason I call her the best surprise our family ever received.
Because she was very much a surprise.
As in, her mom went to the hospital late one night with severe back pain & found out she was pregnant probably about 30 or so minutes before having to have an emergency C-section.
(Have you ever watched 'I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant'? Similar case right here.)
Luckily she was only about 3 weeks early and except for a clubbed foot (which turned out fine) she was perfectly healthy.
That was 6 years ago. I was 18 or 19.

A few years later, I was taken off of birth control and so of course my periods went back to being wacky.
Having an irregular period + unprotected sex + our "what ever happens, happens" attitude about pregnancy= Paranoid Sissy. At that point we we're trying, per se, but we weren't preventing either, we would welcome it if it happened.

Well, for reasons other than this I had already cut down on any drinking anyway.
So this was more of a reason to cut down even more.
And I've been that way ever since.
If/when my period gets on a track of being normal, I'm fine and know that should an occasion come up I can probably have a drink or two.
When it whacks out, paranoia spikes.
It kind of sucks.
Even though I usually only really drink on occasion, the who unknown factor freaks me out.

Hell not even to do with drinking, just the not knowing freaks me out in general.

It's almost a good things though, something like that does help with wanting to do as good as possible for myself and my body. It's also a large reason I'm in this struggle to get in some kind of better shape and get healthier.
Also as a result, I keep a stock of pregnancy test and take them every so often, or if I ever feel different. Poor wallet of mine.
Maybe I'll see a positive in one, one day.

Super random post, I know, but it was on my mind because I had a couple of beers over the weekend and I just felt like they didn't sit well. And because my period has taken a break (aka "normal") I was all "what if..."

((I know I haven't talked much about the whole baby situation in a bit, but I just have been pushing it to the back of my mind a lot. I got my reminder in the mail the other day that it's time for me to schedule my yearly. Yikes. So that means I'm going back into the "lions den" and going to have to talk about my options again. I'm confused, I don't know what to say and saying "I don't know" is more like saying no to a doctor. So, it's barreling to the forefront of my brain again. Trying to sort things out in my mind.))

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Brandy

Randomness, in bulleted form.

• Hellllooooo!

• Is October really over?

• It's really November?

• Not only am I late to start my Christmas shopping. We also now have to start figuring out Thanksgiving plans and I have to start figuring out what the heck to do for my mom's 50th birthday. Brain overload? Yes.

•Speaking of November & Thanksgiving. Am I the only one who legitimately thought "Oh no, it's almost November & now we get to see what everyone is thankful for every.single.day."? Don't get me wrong, it's fine & I get it. I actually like that people do it. But it does get old sometimes. There is one girl that I noticed who posted about being thankful for the small things, like how her house was beginning to fill with the smell of what she was cooking for supper. I like that.

• I can't find my computer mouse.

• This is how much Halloween candy we had to hand out.

This is also the amount that's left over. We had 2 people stop by.

• I submitted a pumpkin for a carving contest held by Fall Out Boy. I didn't win 1st place, but they chose 3 runner ups & I was one of them! :) I get a free poster. In case you don't follow my on InstaG, this is my pumpkin. And here is the winners announcement on their site.

• I still never heard back from that job. I'm pretty sure it's been filled.

• Pretty sure I gained about 2 pounds this weekend. Sad to say it might have been worth it. Sometimes you just need to let yourself pig out a little. Too bad we pigged out a lot. Oops.

• A former classmate of mine passed away on the 30th. So sad. We weren't really in the same friends group, but that doesn't even matter, it's still sad to see/hear of someone who is in your age group (and class) pass. Did anyone watch the season of America's Got Talent with a group called The Fiddleheads on it? Well, I went to school with 2 of those guy & him being one of them, he's is/was the founder of that group. He was married to my husbands cousins cousin (make sense?). I'm so sad for her.

• In the wake of that, I can't help but want to hold D a little closer. I couldn't image going through that, especially so suddenly.

• The Real Housewives of Atlanta is back! (Atl & OC are my favorites). I'm excited!

• Girl Code is back!

• I am SO tired still from this weekend. I definitely haven't gotten all my sleep in.

• Let's talk about this weekend. Friday night Carla and I spent WAY too much time working on a puzzle. 7pm-4am And then the next morning. It's still not finished. I don't want to talk about it. Saturday was a major game day for my Dawgs. The Georgia/Florida game. AND WE WON! 3 IN A ROW! Proud to be a Gator Hater. Ugh, so happy and proud! Doug and I finally had Sbarro pizza. We haven't had it in a while & decided it would be our supper for Saturday...only instead of going to the mall and get a slice each, we went and got a whole pizza to bring home. And within an hour that whole pizza was GONE. (This is where that weight gain happened I'm sure). Then at around 10 or 10:30 we had to take an impromptu drive to Athens (about 2 hours away) because my dad was on his way back to the hunting club down there & the car tore up on him. There's no service at the club, so we couldn't get a hold of anyone down there, sooo we had to go help him. It was an interesting night to say the least. We finally made it home at 2am. Sunday we slept late and once we finally rolled out of bed we got ready to go catch a matinee movie, after having Taco Bell for lunch. We saw Bad Grandpa (finally). It was good. (In case you didn't know, I'm an avid Jackass fan. I love them & all of the guys involved.) It wasn't on the same level as Jackass, since this one is only Johnny, but it was still funny. After the movie it was time for spending way too much money grocery shopping & then home to do NOTHING!

• Obviously I didn't eat very well this weekend. It's whatever. So far the menu for the week include baked potatoes one night, baked chicken another & then burgers one night. And of course veggies and salad.

• This...

Saw them yesterday and had to get them to try. Then  wondered why I bought more candy when we still have a shit ton left from Halloween.

• I found my mouse.

• Grown Ups 2 comes out on DVD tomorrow. And Eminem's new album does too. Get 'em.

• Have a good Monday. I need to clean. A lot.

♥♥♥
Brandy