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Oh hello there.

It's me, Miss MIA.

Could you ever even begin to guess why?

The Internet. Oh yes, the internet.

Sprint was lovely enough to send us a $540 bill Saturday & when my mom checked into it, it turns out they had changed our account, without us knowing. So needless to say we are trying to be minimal with net usage so we don't go over again & looking around for new a ISP.

Speaking of,....who do you have & do you like them?!

Mom was thinking about AT&T Uverse, but we don't know yet. 

Any suggestions?!

I've been trying to think of other ways to workout. Aside from just getting lazy, I get bored with typical routines. I have a lot printed off & in a binder (yep, I have a workout binder), but I want something to change it up a little.

I mentioned a couple of weeks ago, or I think I did, that I was thinking about doing Hip Hop Abs.

(btw, I'm still in the "thinking about" stage of that-lazy ass)

Yesterday at Wal Mart I was just moseying around and decided to walk down the workout isle & saw another dance DVD that caught my eye.

In case you don't know, the Step Up franchise is one of my absolute favorites. I love most dance movies because I love dancing.

So I was thinking that since this one is only about $9, I might try it.

I don't know.

Has anyone else tried any kind of dance workout dvd's and like them?

Last week: 164.2

Today: 164.2

No change.

Week of water is going alright, I've allowed myself to have 1 to 2 dews, so that I wouldn't beat myself up about it should I cave. (IOW: being realistic) Monday & Tuesday I only had 1 Dew, the rest water. I'm reallllly craving it today though, I might have 2.

Week of sleep, well that's a different story. I think sometimes your body knows how much rest you need more than you do. I took Zzzquil Monday night & fought it for a little while trying to watch Teen Mom 3, well I didn't make it to the end, I know I was out before Midnight...which you would think would put me waking up around 8-9. Nope...try 1pm.

So last night I skipped it....last time I looked at the clock before going to sleep was almost 5am...I woke up a little after noon.

So...Idk. 

I'm super bummed that our internet is still causing issues.

I was so ready to do a VMA recap and shit.

The VMAs actually kind of gave me two potential blog post ideas. So I still may do those.

My weekend was great. The guys went to the hunting club for work weekend & my mom & I spent 2 nights  watching scary movies. I spent some quality time with my hubs on Sunday.

Pretty low key & fabulous.

That's it for today.

Be back...at some point?

Haha

Lovins betches!

♥♥♥

Brandy

 

Sleepy Sissy...

I am sleepy.

It's almost 11:30 & I've already hit the 24 hour mark on being awake.

Which means little ole me=delusional.

So...you get sleepy brain because I can't be bothered to type up the post I was going to talk about.

Which was just my wishlist.

So that will be saved for next week.

SO

Sleepy Sissy says:

Damn you One Direction. A benefit of my staying Up All Night was that I was able to see their performance on The Today Show. And it was glorious. It made me want to go back to June even more to relive the Atlanta show. Look. I'm so sure you lovely ladies are probably tired of hearing me talk about them, but you are on my corner of the webz...soo.... ;) There were a couple of observations sleepy me made: 1- Someone was holding up an iPad in the audience...a FACKING IPAD. NO. Don't do that. You look dumb. I'm thousands of miles away & I giggled at you & then became annoyed. It's called a camera, invest it in, learn it, love it. 2- The number of fans that looks utterly bored bothered me, also the number of fans that were, I'm sure, tweeting, InstaG-ing, or texting bothered me also. You're young...like teens...at a free mini-concert with your "favorite" artist performing. WHATERYOUDOING?!  Whatever. Betches. I'm convinced that I can't be held responsible for the way I feel when I see 1D, Harry Styles in particular. His voice was so rugged, and raw today. ohmahlawd. Like, I have legitimately tried to fight the way I feel. I'm 25 & can assure you I'm happily married. But that boy leaves me with sexual frustration like you wouldn't believe. (Sorry Doug, should you ever see this) They make me feel like a teenager, it's like reverted back to those days when you see someone and it makes you all giddy & you grin ear to ear, and melt when they speak -er sing-, etc etc... Mom's a good sport for sitting through it. lol

Of course there were adult conversation moments like "I wonder how much school these kids miss for stuff like this" etc. & Mom did said that David Beckham was pretty (there was a David Beckham ad that they showed) So...yea..that's that....

I've been thinking about one of my old dogs lately. For the past maybe 3 or 4 days & I'm not entirely sure why. Her name was Princess, and she passed away entirely too early. I don't have a picture on hand or I'd post it. But as if thinking about & missing her wasn't bad enough, my ass decided that watching Frankenweenie for the first time in the middle of the night was a good idea. Warning: slight spoiler if you haven't watched it. Damn you, Frankenweenie. I bawled. I'm actually still not sure how I feel about it. Princess got hit by a car (same way Sparky died)..instatears. My heart broke. DAMMIT. And then he's brought back & then dies AGAIN (instatears again) & then is brought back...but still...it was bad timing. Even though I probably would have cried anyway, I think I cried way more because I had Princess on my mind.

I've been kind of  "off" this week. Everyone can tell. I've worried Doug to the point where he thinks it's him/us that's the issue. Not the case. Just an overall off-ness. I also blame Aunt Flow. That bitch. That fuckin' bitch. I'm sure you don't want to know, but Bitch declared internal warfare on my body earlier this week & I'm just now starting to recover. Not only was it not time for it, but it was fucking brutal. BRU-TAL. & I've just not been feeling anything, or really anyone. I hate feeling that way. I feel bad for feeling that way...which is counterproductive...feeling bad on top of feeling bad? Yea, no good. So I've kept to myself for the most part. Hoping that turns around though. PLEASE GO AWAY!

I kind of want to issue a little challenge to myself. Week of Water & Week of Sleep. What's that? Well, I kind of want to try to drink only (or 95%) water for a week. FYI: I inhale Mountain Dew, it's my drug. I hate going without it. HATE it! But, I do love water (& tea & koolaid & juices). But I want to try to cut it down just a bit...so I figured try a week of water..why a week? Cause it's not that freakin' long. Week of sleep? I'm a self proclaimed insomniac & a night owl. I do sleep, usually, around 7-8 hrs a night. But I sleep at different times. Which, technically is fine for me. But I'd like to re-adjust it a bit & at least try to wake up around 8am-ish, or 9am and feel rested, rather than anywhere from 10:30am-1pm. Why? Idk, I just want to. Plus if I can get a job, it will be helpful to have semi-"normal" hours. SOOO...here it is, posted here for accountability, folks. Bout to make ZzzQuil & water my friends...we'll see how I can do... (even though I stayed up all night last night, I was asleep by at least 10:30pm Wednesday night & woke up at around 10:30 am yesterday morning...so I got 12 hrs..aka too much...lol)

But...on Sunday, I don't think I can start the sleepy Sunday...or maybe I can. Sunday is the VMA's. I gots to watch the VMA's. I have to see 1D & I HAVE to see if NSYNC is actually gonna perform (I read somewhere that Lance himself said that it was just a rumor, so we'll see). Are any of you going to watch? Anyone planning to live tweet? I might, not sure. @bnb03 is me.

According to Peter & Cynthia, RHOA should be returning Late October! AHHHH! YAY!

EXCITING FRAMING HANLEY NEWS! There is a release date for their new album. FINALLY!

IG: FramingHanleyBand

We've been waiting for over a year. It's overdue, but I know it's going to be 100% well worth the wait. I already have 3 songs, & have heard a couple live, I know it's good stuff. I'm so stoked for our FHamily & anyone that's a FHan. And above that I'm so happy for and proud of those boys. I'm still devastaed that the bassist decided to leave, but I hope they find a good stand-in. I can't say replacement. No one will ever replace Luke, but they have to have a bassist. But they sacrifice so much time and energy to do this. They've had to hold down other jobs on top of trying to do this, on top of being family men (they're all married/engaged & 1's a father of 2 & 1's a soon-to-be daddy..as in a few week! EEK!) Anyway, they deserve it. As excited as I am, I'm also a bit nervous. My stomach is gonna fall out of my ass when I get that email about the music video. Makes me nervous now just thinking about it. Anyway, check out my favorite band. It's rock/alternative whatever the fack you want to call it, it's good. Their Twitter is @FramingHanley. If you want song suggestions, ask me, I'll point you to some I think most people should like. (Seriously, if you like music, give them the time of day, if you listen to the right song, I think you'll like them.)

That's IT! I have got to try to take a nap, or at least rest a little bit, before I decide what I'm doing with my afternoon/evening/night. Got my day started good with being able to...talk...to my husband after he woke up & then see him off to work. And then got to see my British beau perform on TV. I am good-to-go. I just want a Mt.Dew...but I'm gonna hold of for now. I brought a bottle of water to bed! YAY!

Bee-tee-dubs, that water/sleep thing will start Monday...because Monday is a wonderful day to start things for some reason. 

Okay I'm done for real this time.

I can't brain today.

I leave you with this.

 

Dammit.

It's okay, you don't have to understand it. A lot of people don't.

Excuuuuusseeee my frenchhh today!

TGIF, I hope everyone has a Fantastic Friday,...for real!

Lovins, shitheads!

♥♥♥

Sissy

WIW

My internet is working at the speed of a turtle today, so I'm just going to try to knock out a quick WIW.
I've gained almost two pounds.
Probably from eating out so much last week.
It's whatever, sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do.
Hardly being home turned into food at the funeral, which there were no shortage of sweets, and eating out. Dippers Dans made my day the other day & I am not sorry the least bit.
I want it again, right now.

Anywho, I don't have anything to say as far as health or fitness or anything like that goes so, I'm not dragging it out.
I, for obvious reasons, didn't post last Wednesday, but I did weigh in & write it down.

Last week: 162.5
Today: 164.2
Gain 1.7

Womp, womp, womp.

 

How does everyone feel about the rumored *NSYNC reunion at the VMAs this Sunday?! 
I'm stoooooked! Totally hope this actually happens! I hate when the rumor mill gets to going with something that everyone wants to happen.
*NSYNC, I WANT...YOU...BACK!

 

That's about all you get today.
Sorry folks.
I have a full internet connection and it's still just not cooperating.
Be back tomorrow, internet permitting.
If it's not one thing, it's another.

♥♥♥
Brandy

What did I really do?

So, at the end of my post I mentioned that Sunday was a little hard on me as well, aside from the fact that we had just been to a funeral the day before.
Sunday we had a birthday party to go to for my cousin.
My uncle didn't utter the first word to me.
I haven't spoken to him since around Christmas.
As far as I know, he took something I posted on Facebook the wrong way.
(As in he took an indirect kind of post and was certain it was all about him and/or his family)
Argued with my dad about it.
Deleted me & we haven't spoke to one another since. At all -I think-.
So, I knew that going to his daughters party would be a bit awkward.
I left wanting to cry.

But believe it or not that's the second time, just between last Wednesday to Sunday, that I was given the cold shoulder/avoided by a family member that I hold dear to me. 
Thursday , at the funeral home, I noticed when she first arrived, I smiled at her & she smiled back. That was the extent. I actually noticed at one point we were headed down the hall towards each other & she turned and went the other way. I walked outside at one point where my brother, her and some of our other cousins were standing and talking...she walked back in.
My brother even said later that night that she said that "we pissed her off, bad" ("we" being my mom and I)
What I did to her? I haven't the SLIGHTEST idea.
I spoke to her after my birthday, she's actually the person who told me about my Great Aunt being diagnosed with cancer, and that has been the last time I even talked to her. I noticed about 3.5 weeks ago she deleted me (and my mom) on FB. What did I even do to piss her off?! What the hell did my mom even do?
I shouldn't let it bother me so much. And normally it wouldn't.
I guess I just want to know why.
It may not bother me so much if I could just. know. why.

I haven't stepped up and spoke to either one of them, as much as I wanted to, it wasn't the time nor place for either one.

I'm a bitch. Admittedly. Always have been. I'm very opinionated, and I'm pretty openly opinionated.
Sometimes I express my opinions without being asked, most other times I'm mum about it unless asked.
Do I take to FB (or anywhere on the net hello, blog) to rant or express my opinion, of course. So. do. they.
I'm not perfect, I don't claim to be & quite frankly I don't want to be.
I'll also not tell you what you want to hear just because you want to hear it.
If you ask my opinion, I'll try to present it well in order to not hurt feelings too bad.
If I post a general post, there is a reason it's general. It applies to multiple people.
You can get mad at me for talking about an issue that happens to also pertain to you.
Trust me, there are many, mannnnyyy posts that I am sure are/have been about me.
I get it.
Hell I don't know.
I'm just racking my brain wondering what the hell it is that I even did. More so to my cousin.
I basically know what pissed my uncle off. But my cousin? At this point in time, I'm clueless.

As I said it shouldn't be bothering me & most days I don't even think about it. But this weekend, with both of them having the opportunity to turn a cold shoulder, it bothered me.
And then, also on Sunday, my brother blamed something that was his fault on me & that did me in. I was so ready for Monday. I'm so glad it's a new week.

It's really hard when friends upset you.
It even worse when family does.
And it's even more worse when it's family that you are closer with.
Anyone else have this issue?

Bleh.
Just clearing my mind.

Happy Tuesday and stuff.

♥♥♥
Brandy

Never easy letting go...

You know that feeling of extreme guilt?
Where you have no excuse for something that you did...it just happened,
but you feel bad about it.
And then something worse happens, to where you can't make it up, ever.

I told you all about a month ago that my Great Aunt -my mom's Aunt- was at the hospital for pneumonia & ended up being diagnosed with cancer. It was everywhere.
She passed away Wednesday morning at about 7:35am. Exactly a month after being diagnosed.
I got up, got ready & went to her house, where my mom was. And spent the morning over there until the funeral home came and removed her. I don't think I have ever really saw my Granny cry, but seeing her sister wheeled out on a gurney broke her a bit & that was hard for me to see.
Mom and I came home & she went to bed because she had been awake all night & I made cornbread and just kind of sat there, thinking.
The last half of my week was spent at the funeral home & the funeral was Saturday.

Dora Mae was my next door neighbor for the first 10 years of my life.
So many of my childhood memories were at her house.
Eating biscuits. Cornbread. Anything, she always fed whoever was at her house.
Playing with my cousins.
Watching soap operas.

My guilt stems from not seeing her much at all after we moved.
We only moved across the highway, maybe 5 minutes away (if even).
Granted for about 6 years it was out of my hands, being as I couldn't drive, but after that what was stopping me? I feel bad for not popping in and seeing her periodically. The fact that I visited her more in the past month than I have in the past I don't know how many years is pathetic, to me.
I know I shouldn't be beating myself up this much, it's not about me. But sometimes you can help but hold that bit of guilt. I just hope that she knew that I loved her. I know I was able to tell her several times in the last month, but I just hope that she really knew and felt it. I hope she was able to feel the love from everyone, because there was a lot of it.
Something else that makes me sad is when something like this brings families together. It's such a bittersweet thing. You get to see people you haven't seen in years, but it's for the wrong reasons. Meeting new people, becoming reacquainted with others.
Like I said, bittersweet.

Anyway, that's what has been going on most of last week and into the weekend. That's why I've been pretty MIA (esp. on here)...yet again.

But here I am.
I am actually glad it's Monday. I welcome it. Last week was hard, yesterday was even hard on me, but I won't get into that in this post.
I'm ready for this week. I need to find a bit of a pick-me-up, I don't want to slip back into my hole too deep.

So, Happy Monday, folks.
♥♥♥
Brandy

A buck for your junk...

No, no, I'm not talking about a strip club.

I'm talking about all the shit that takes up room in your, well, room.
And then there are the clothes in your closet.

See, I have a problem with getting rid of things.
I'm a pack rat.
But I want need to get rid of a lot of the useless, non-sentimental, stuff.
But, you see. I also like money.
Most of stuff is taken care of, and there are somethings that I can't help but think, I couldn't probably get a few dollars out of this.
Same with clothes. I have a pair of Tommy Hilfiger jeans that I bought in 7th or 8th grade (12-13 years ago) and NEVER wore. Surely I could get about $5 or $10 out of those right? Or my pair of Abercrombie jeans that I bought in 7th or 8th grade that I only wore once. Another $5 maybe. I mean, shit, I paid upwards of $30-$40 a piece for them. and even the non-name brand stuff that I've already decided I can part with, it's in good condition, some of it was also never wore. I'm not unrealistic. I know I can take a whole box of clothes in and walk out with a very small amount of money, which would be fine.
When I was a teen, I had an issue with giving a lot of my clothes away to be hand-em-downs because I was always the kind of person who didn't want someone to get something that was good & then ruin it right away. I know, it's kind of an unreasonable thing to think that, but it has stuck with me, and I'm kind of the same way still. So, I've always figured, try to make a little change($) from it.
The two main issues are, one: thrift shops & retail boutiques are so picky -and I get it- and two: have you tried selling anything on those damn FB yardsale pages. Pain in the ass. I'm unsuccessful at it. It's annoying.

And then there is the other end of the spectrum where you can just donate everything. I know it's good & I know a lot of people can possibly benefit from it.
I've leaned more towards that, until recently. I feel like that is still the option I'll end up doing just because it's the easier one.

So what would you do? (Or what have you done?)
Try to get a few bucks for your stuff or just set it out & never look back?


My weekend was pretty good.
I had a bad night Friday.
But Saturday was good other than a text message I received.
I spent the day with my aunt, her daughter & her other niece.
We were in Atlanta from 1pm to Midnight for Justin Bieber.
We stood out where the tour buses park from the moment we got into the city til about 6 or 6:30 JUST to try and get a glimpse of JB. (that's approximately 5 hours) No such luck. We did see a lot of his team and dancers. And we saw the two opening acts, Cody Simpson & Ariana Grande.
The show itself was great. Cody & Ariana both are actually pretty dang good. Ariana makes me think of Mariah Carey, kind of. And then of course Justin. Oh, Justin. He can still make a girl swoon. haha. I first saw him 3 years ago, when he was still relatively new. It was his first tour and all & he was good. Saturday night he showed that he's still got it. I'm just glad he was on time. haha. I was kind of bummed that he only had one special guest. The first time we saw him he had 3 or 4 special guests. This time, only one. He ended the night with the song "Baby" which Ludacris has a part in, so being that we were in the A, of course Luda came out and performed his part. (That makes the 2nd concert this year that I have been to where Luda was a special/surprise guest!)
As soon as the show was over, we ran right back to where we were before the show (at the tour buses) & watched everyone leave. lol My Aunt and I still didn't see Justin (we weren't standing with the girls, we let them stand down by the fence with the other Beliebers by themselves) but they did get to see him a little, so that's what counts. We did see his mom, little brother & little sister. & of course a lot of his crew, entourage and dancers.

All in all it was good night. I got home around 2am.
Sunday was spent sleeping a majority of the day, lounging the rest of it & watching the Teen Choice Awards.
Yes, I watched them. Yes, I watched just for 1D. And yes, I got to see my British boyfriend twerk (I think he regretted it immediately, lol.)

Lea Michele made me cry because she talked about & dedicated her award to Cory (the Glee cast also dedicated the cast award to Cory). I'm sure you can find a video on YouTube if you're interested.
It was an okay show. Seemed a little bit unorganized. And the performances were off. Like when 1D performed two of the mics were either turned down (or turned off), same for FL/GA Line & Nelly, there seemed to be a mic issue. Or maybe the sound people were just not on their game. I don't know. But whatever.

That was it, that was my weekend.

Hope everyone else had a great weekend. What did you do? 


Happy Monday!
♥♥♥
Brandy

Missing my bestest.

So, that nice bubbly-ish post yesterday?
I came unhinged about oh,..mayybbbe an hour after posting it.
Have you ever went from relatively happy, or okay, to hyperventilating & crying.
It's crazy. You don't want to. You'll feel crazy.
And I did, feel crazy.

It's not a good feeling at all to drive away from your best friends house knowing that in a couple of days they are moving. Out of state. 7 hours away.
It's not a good feeling to look over as you leave, and see that your mom is crying too.
This happened to me. 12 years ago.
Less than a week before we were supposed to start 8th grade.
I'll never forget being on the bus, headed to school on the first day, and seeing her step-dads van at the store & knowing that he was leaving. That was it.

My best friend, the girl I was attached at the hip to since 5th grade, had to move. And I really don't think I have been the same ever since.
It sucks. Every day.
I really do believe a piece of me left when she did. Firmly believe that.

We used to write letters. More like short stories. I miss that.
We don't get the luxury of meeting up for lunch/dinner.
We don't get to have double dates.
We don't get to go to each others house to eat, drink, talk, hang out, be lazy, whatever.
We don't get to talk on the phone much.
We don't even get to text that much.
It hurts.

Life gets in the way happens. I understand that. We've grown up, I understand that. We're, in a lot of ways, in two different worlds- it seems.
I hate not being able to clear my mind or rant to her. I hate that she's not able to do the same when something is bothering her. I hate that we don't get to be crazy together. No more dancing in the black light. No junk food eating & talking.

I'm extremely thankful that our friendship has overcome the distance. We're still just as close as we used to be, just miles apart. I'm the God Mother of her kids & I wish I could see them more. I miss her mom and stepdad, as they are basically my second parents. I miss her sister. I miss them.
We still see each other at least once a year, even if it's just for 3 days.
It definitely makes the time we get to see each other more precious.
But even that's not enough sometimes.
But the distance still wears you down.

I feel like I sound selfish.
Just remember the next time you get to meet up with your closest friend for whatever reason, that I can't do that. Then you imagine not being able to do that & you'd know a smidge of what I feel.

It's always on my mind. Missing them. But sometimes it's really, really harder than other times. I've been struggling with it a lot this week. It's bad.

I just want my best friend back.
In person.
I wish that wasn't too much to ask.


♥♥♥
Brandy