So, that nice bubbly-ish post yesterday?
I came unhinged about oh,..mayybbbe an hour after posting it.
Have you ever went from relatively happy, or okay, to hyperventilating & crying.
It's crazy. You don't want to. You'll feel crazy.
And I did, feel crazy.
It's not a good feeling at all to drive away from your best friends house knowing that in a couple of days they are moving. Out of state. 7 hours away.
It's not a good feeling to look over as you leave, and see that your mom is crying too.
This happened to me. 12 years ago.
Less than a week before we were supposed to start 8th grade.
I'll never forget being on the bus, headed to school on the first day, and seeing her step-dads van at the store & knowing that he was leaving. That was it.
My best friend, the girl I was attached at the hip to since 5th grade, had to move. And I really don't think I have been the same ever since.
It sucks. Every day.
I really do believe a piece of me left when she did. Firmly believe that.
We used to write letters. More like short stories. I miss that.
We don't get the luxury of meeting up for lunch/dinner.
We don't get to have double dates.
We don't get to go to each others house to eat, drink, talk, hang out, be lazy, whatever.
We don't get to talk on the phone much.
We don't even get to text that much.
It hurts.
Life gets in the way happens. I understand that. We've grown up, I understand that. We're, in a lot of ways, in two different worlds- it seems.
I hate not being able to clear my mind or rant to her. I
hate that she's not able to do the same when something is bothering her.
I hate that we don't get to be crazy together. No more dancing in the
black light. No junk food eating & talking.
I'm extremely thankful that our friendship has overcome the distance. We're still just as close as we used to be, just miles apart. I'm the God Mother of her kids & I wish I could see them more. I miss her mom and stepdad, as they are basically my second parents. I miss her sister. I miss them.
We still see each other at least once a year, even if it's just for 3 days.
It definitely makes the time we get to see each other more precious.
But even that's not enough sometimes.
But the distance still wears you down.
I feel like I sound selfish.
Just remember the next time you get to meet up with your closest friend for whatever reason, that I can't do that. Then you imagine not being able to do that & you'd know a smidge of what I feel.
It's always on my mind. Missing them. But sometimes it's really, really harder than other times. I've been struggling with it a lot this week. It's bad.
I just want my best friend back.
In person.
I wish that wasn't too much to ask.
And I've got nothin!
haha.
I'm in a good mood but I don't have the slightest idea for a post to type up quickly.
So, naturally...
I'm just gonna RAMBLE.
Anyone see the game last night? Anyone? Anyone?
Welp, My Falcons lost, which meant My Bengals won.
Now tell me that's not a bit confusing!
It's like "booo," but "yayyy."
I know the Magness couples & Jessica were happy! ;-)
I just had to keep saying, "it's only preseason" & it's "mainly second string" for my boys.
Preseason is good, good to see where there strengths & weaknesses are.
Ours seemed to be mainly offense.
So...yea. They should work on that.
Atleast my Broncos won! I didn't get to "watch" it.
I had to keep up w/ it online.
But they won. I'll take it.
This was my night last night.
2 outta 3 ain't bad, especially since 2 of the 3 were up against each other, haha.
Lions play tonight. I'll have to "watch" it online too.
How did your team(s) do last night (if they played)??
I don't know why I'm in such a good mood today. I think it's because I'm pushing a lot down, which kind of forces a good mood in a weird way. I got some bullshit that's bothering me, that shouldn't be. And, I do have a lot of baby junk on my mind. I'm sure I'll need to let that out soon before I drive myself crazy.
It's been 3 years, to the day, since I first saw Justin Bieber in concert. 8-9-10. And I'm seeing him again tomorrow! Woop, woop!
I'll fully admit 2 things...
1- I've been a bad JB fan in the sense that I don't know a lot of songs off of his latest album...cause I never bought it. Oopsie.
& 2- I would give my ticket away in a heartbeat if I could see One Direction again. I got it bad. I really do. Damn you, Harry.
But, it's setting in that I'm going & I am excited now!
Even with all the wild things he's been in the news for, I'm still goin'.
His ass just better not go Diva (or dickhead) and be showing up late to the show.
Sunday will probably be leisurely. Doing a lot of nothin'!
Well, my lovelies. I need to get some cleaning done.
I thought to myself, I'ma post a song...Cayla & Karla among others do the "Back That Azz Up" thing often & I've wonder why I haven't, being as obsessed with music as I am, so I decided I would today. I figured whatever is playing on my MP3 by the time I'm finished rambling is what I will post...so...
here you go! ;-)
Tonight two of my teams kickoff, against each other. Falcons & Bengals at 8:00
Denver kicks off at 9:00 against 49ers.
And Detroit kicks off Friday at 7:30 against the Jets.
I am SO ready.
But thats also causing nerves to kick in.
I get too so nervous during football season.
I'll want to talk shit SO bad, but I try to refrain from too much unless I'm exchanging banter with someone.
The truth is, you NEVER know how your team is going to do.
Both of my number one teams (Falcons & Dawgs) are coming off of great seasons last year, but that doesn't always guarantee a repeat.
You know what I mean?
I mean, I have faith.
But it's so easy to make mistakes & fall.
(As with anything in life)
My nerves are building.
I'm updating my score center app.
I'm anticipating the hell out of kickoff for college ball.
OH EM GEE!
I don't even want to get started on that.
Lawd.
Well, I'm guest posting on Sarah's blog today. :-)
It's my first one, be gentle on me.
First of all, I have a question. Do any of your have, or know anyone who has, that Hip Hop Abs set?!
I've really been thinking about getting it. I mean, I said I wanted to get back into dancing.
Whats a better workout that learning dance moves? If you have it, or know someone who has, let me know what you/they think about it, pretty please.
One person on my facebook said she has it and that some of the moves are tough. Which is typical, I'm sure, and I'm okay with that I suppose. lol It's one of the first workout DVD sets that really looked appealing to me in a while.
I was reading something last night about hair growth, particularly male patterned hair growth on women -face, chest, abdomen, back-, that kinda of gave me a mental boost to lose weight. Embarrassingly I have hair on my belly, think a mans happy trail. You see a happy trail on a man and it's attractive, see a bit of one on a woman it's a little off putting. lol I know many woman have it a little bit, like maybe peach fuzz, but mine is darker hair, it's not "feminine and cute" or anything like that at all. So I HATE it.
I've been thinking of laser hair removal. Have any of you ever had laser hair removal? How good did it work? How painful was it?
Anyway, back to my point. I was reading and searching about it and I was lead to an article about Hirsutism, which is excessive hair growth in women where they normally don't have it. First of all, I'm not Chewbacca or the bearded lady or anything like that, but it sort of fits my little issue. I read the article & it kind of clicked. Maybe I have a mild case. And it pretty much touched on what I have been suspicious of being the issue, that my testosterone levels may be a bit high, which can be caused by many things, including PCOS & being over weigh/ obesity. In turn, being overweight/obese and having higher t-levels (aka hormone imbalance) can also affect getting pregnant, which I already knew. So, if -IF- that is my issue, losing weight might help fix both of those problems. I already knew that losing weight MAY help my ovulation get back on track & up my chances of pregnancy, but this was the first time I even read about the hair thing. You can ead more about Hirsutism here. So, this kind of counts as a bit of a baby update also. Although I have not talked to my doctor about it or anything, I have a gut feeling that this is my issue, the whole hormonal imbalance thing, which I've had that gut feeling for a while. I can't remember what my hormone levels were though, or if we checked them (I'm sure we did). It's be about 8 or 9 months since I've been to the Dr. so I don't remember 100%. I'm not fully trying to self-diagnose or anything, alls I'm saying is it makes sense, for now. haha. Either way, cross your fingers for me.
And now to weigh in...
Today: 163.8
Last week: 163.8
No change. It's not a gain, so I'll take it.
So, now that I've talked about my embarrassing issue, that's all I've got for you today.
I need to get a little cleaning done.
Happened to me today at lunch time. So then you think, I'll eat some pizza rolls.
Maybe not be the best for ya, but it's quick and easy & you know you'll like it.
Until you see that you only have like 6 or 7 left.
So, what do I do.
Eat them, duh. But it's not enough.
So, eventually I go for a little something more.
As I'm sitting her eating my snack, (don't worry, it's healthy)
I'm thinking about some of the other odd food combinations I like to eat.
Let's see if y'all have ever eaten any of the same things...
(I don't even want to hear how unhealthy any of it is, trust me, I know.)
(all images, except the 2 cell phone pictures, are from google.com)
1. Ham & sour cream & onion chips. I'm not talking about the thick chunks or what not, I'm talking the thin sandwich slices. I grew up snacking on this and it just stuck with me. What to do: take a slice of ham, lay it flat. Then take a few chips, crumple them up (or don't, whatever you prefer) and then fold the four "corners" (most are round, but you get my point) in & eat. I can eat a whole (small) pack of ham doing this, easily.
2. Chicken in a Biskit cracker with easy cheese and popcorn.(or just popcorn and easy cheese.) I grew up eating chicken in a biskit crackers with easy cheese, & I love it. But years ago, I decided I wanted to try it with popcorn. It's so good. I even got other people to start eating it. Haha. What to do: take a cracker, top with cheese & then top with about 3 pieces of popcorn (or how ever much you can fit) & eat.
3. Lay's (classic) with ketchup. This one isn't that odd, I know a handful of people who eat this. But I loooove it. And no, the ketchup flavored lays don't count. What to do: you can simply take a handful of chips and either put them in a plate or bowl and just drizzle ketchup over. Or put them on a plate & put ketchup to the side to dip the chips in. Or you can put them in a bowl, drizzle ketchup over & then crush together & eat with a spoon.
4. Lay's (classic) with pickles. I honestly don't know who started me on this, or if I just tried it on my own one day, but I love it. I looove pickles and can drink the juice alone, so I think one day when I was a kid I just decided to dip chips in it. I don't know...but yeah, it's good. And no, same as with the ketchup chips, the dill flavored chips don't count. What to do: Bite of a pickle & chip, eat. Repeat. Repeat. lol. Or, you can dip the chips in the pickle juice.
5. Peanut Butter and Granny Smith Apples. My mom thinks I'm crazy. "Caramel with apples is better." Nope. Not for this girl. Love me some peanut butter. Although I don't think this one is that odd either. What to do: Dip apple in pb. Simple.
6. Peanut Butter and...grapes! (What I'm currently snacking on.) White grapes in particular. Y'all I just tried this last week. I've been wanting to for a while just because I figured it would be good. Then one of my lovely UK friends was raving about it on Twitter one day & I told her I was thinking of trying it. She recommended it. So I did & it is really good! White grapes have that similar sourness the granny smith apples have, so the peanut butter compliments it. If you like apples & pb, try this at least once. Doesn't require a lot of pb per grape. A dab'll do ya. What to do: get a bowl full of grapes and a large spoonful of pb & just swipe each grape across the pb, enough to maybe cover the tip of the grape. mmmm...
7. Cheese & Doritos (or Lay's BBQ chips) sandwich. I grew up on cheese & lay's chips, but in my teen years I decided to try Doritos on it. Looove. What to do: Make a cheese sandwich, as usual (for me, it's bread & american cheese, with mayo, of course) and then open it back up and put Doritos on each side of the cheese. Same way for the BBQ Lay's.
What about you?
Ever had any of the things on my list?
Are there any odd or unusual food combinations that you like to eat?
Hope everyone had a great weekend.
Not gonna get into a recap.
All we really did was celebrate my nephews 10th & relax.
Today I was just kind of floating around, packing our things up at my mother in laws & I'm finally back home.
It's crazy how being in different places changes your attitude. That
feeling of low worth & failure crept back in on me & I'm
fighting the blah right now. It's always there, but sometimes it's more
prevalent than other times.
So how fun was Erin & Erin's Football link up on Friday?! I found, I think, only ONE fellow Bulldogs fan!
But lots of SEC fans, so that's good.
Speaking of Football.
I really wanna go to the Falcon & Bengals practice tomorrow, but I kind of don't want to go alone, but I have no one to go with. Boo. So we'll see if I go.
First preseason game for us (Falcons) is Thurrrsdayyy & it's against the Bengals, of course.
So that brings us to
3 days til first preseason game
24 days til SEC kickoff -Scar Cocks-
&
26 Days til Bulldogs kickoff!
WOOHOO!
Speaking of WooHoo! Tonight is the season finale of RHOC. I hate when my shows end.
But T.I. & Tiny comes back on. (Love my some T.I., in case you didn't know)
Anyone else have a laundry list of shows that they watch at any given time of the year?!
I honestly have no direction that I'm going in this post...just rambling.
I feel like I need to update my about me page or something. Hell, I feel like my whole blog needs a facelift.
I just need something. I don't know what though.
Oh, if you are a Pepsi (or diet pepsi) drinker (or dew & diet dew) and you have any of those codes & aren't interested in keeping/using them, send them my way! I need more pepsi codes than dew cods, but I'll take either! It ends Saturday, so this is the last week. KTHANKS.
I am SO stoked for this Link Up! Are you a football fan also? LINK UP with Erin, Erin & Tiffany and tell everyone about your favorite(s)!
I almost don't even know where to start, so I'm just gonna go based on the areas that Erin suggested.
But I'll start by saying screaming...
I AM SOOOO HAPPY THAT FOOTBALL SEASON IS AT THE DOOR! I mean, it's basically HERE!
I'll start with Pro...
My Favorite Team(s)-yes multiples- & why:
1. Altanta Falcons. Usually growing up, you kinda of are a fan of your states teams by default. Or you're fans of whatever team your parents are. It's no different with me. I'm a Georgia Peach. My teams are the Falcons (the Brave & the Hawks-even though I don't really watch baseball or basketball-). So I have been a Falcons fan forevvaaa! & I wouldn't change a thing about it. I really do love them, and always have (it even shows in my email address, the 32 was the number of my favorite player (at the time) Jamal Anderson, babyyy!) I still have my superbowl shirt from 98.
This team...in the past few years has came closer and closer to the Super Bowl, and even with that they are STILL, STILL underrated as hell. We have some amazing players. Rowdy Roddy, Matty Ice, Tony G, Julioooo Jones, Kroy Biermann (aka -for all of you reality tv watchers- Kim Zolciaks hubby), among many others. I mean, I bleed red & black (x's two -you'll understand that in a minute-). They've been through controversy, with a certain team member getting in trouble in 2007, and then their coach just up and quit on them before the season was over in 2008. WHOOO DOES THAT?! But they bounced back. With the entering of head coach Smith & new QB Ryan. Don't count them out just yet. I'm hoping for an amazing year for them! Dirty Bird for Life. Falcons Rise Up!
My favorite Falcons commercial.
Such Pride we have!
Before I talk about the next couple of teams, I'll be the first to say that bandwagoner fans annoy the piss outta me. Buttt... that is actually exactly how I've come to be fans of these teams.
2. Denver Broncos- This my number 2 team. Initially, I followed my faaaaavorite college player here. I literally cried when he decided to forgo his senior year & enter the draft. In 2009 he was drafted in the first round (12th overall) by the Broncos & just like that I was a "Bronco fan". I pushed myself to "get to know the team though", so I could be a Bronco Fan instead of just Moreno. Which turned out to be a good thing because got injured, then in a little trouble, and then injured again, poor fella. Now this team has frustrated the shit out of me to no end. I mean they got rid of Kyle Orton (aka their QB) a couple of years ago for that gator ass boy. Yea, everyone's precious Tim Tebow. I'm still trying to figure out why the fuck they thought that would be a good idea. And I literally questioned whether I wanted to cheer for them anymore. Then they finally booted him & got mr Manning! So it all worked out. I always said they Peyton finally grew up from a colt to a bronco! Horse humor, ftw! My most recent frustration is them cutting Willis McGahee. I feel like that was huge mistake, I'm REALLY hoping that doesn't hurt them & that Moreno settles back into his role. Other assets? Of course Peyton, he's been great for us since Te-whatever. Von Miller is great & I LOVE watching him do his little jigs! Champ Bailey, Eric Decker, Demaryius Thomas. Oh and their newest asset, which has me sooo much more excited for this season, is that they drafted Tavarres King aka TK!! during the draft. (another college player from my team -same team as Moreno-). I am soooo facking excited that they got him & SOOO ready to see him and Moreno on the same field again! My Moreno! WOO! Go Broncos!
3. Detroit Lions- I followed Matthew Stafford here. Our amazing QB was drafted to the Lions, so naturally we keep up with him & cheer him on. They also have Shaun Chapas and now Kris Durham (both from the same team as Staff). While I admit I haven't gotten to know this team 100% as well as I need to, we still cheer for them. Even though he's [Stafford] been with them for a good number of years now, we are still getting to know the team. They are a great team.
4. Cincinnati Bengals- Who Dey?! Who did I follow to this team you ask? AJ Green. LOOOVE him! Was so sad to see him leave us. I just read last week that he will be out for several practices due to a bruised knee, buttt, hopefully will be ready by game time. So that's what I'm really hoping for. And then they obtained Orson Charles during the draft a couple years ago. Huge gain. He was amazing for us during college. There is a bit of still getting to know this whole team that we have to do. We catch as many games as we can (same goes for the Lions) but when you like multiple teams, that can be tough. lol
You know, like I just said, when you like multiple teams it really can be hard to keep up. What makes it harder is that we don't have Sunday Ticket so we can only watch games that are being broadcasts on our local channels or ESPN, we sometmes miss a lot of games. And then there are games that overlap and ugh, it can get challenging! But we do the best we can. We really need to invest in Sunday Ticket though...
NOW...onto COLLEGE!
Saturday Down South. We love the SEC. Football is a religion. We take it seriously.
There is only one team, ONE, that gets my whole heart.
Nope, it's not the Tide, not the Gay-tors. Scar Cocks? Nope. Not the Vols or Vandy. LSU or The War-Damn-Tiger-Eagles (lol), & no, not Mizzou, the Aggies, or the Razorbacks. Not the Wildcats, or the Rebels. It's the Bulldogs...not to be mistaken for the MSU Bulldogs though...it's the..
GEORGIA BULLDOGS!
The Bulldogs. UGA. DAWGNATION! My Dawgs! Who meet in Athens, Georgia at UGA at Sanford Stadium, Between The Hedges. Where we love every Ugga (Ugg-uh) that we have ever had & continue to have & we love Hairy Dog just at much. When I said I bleed red and black x's 2, this is why. Both team colors are Red and Black. It run DEEP in my blood. We take pride in our team. The Florida/Georgia game is an event, not a game, it's a big damn deal. This teams is love. Same as with the Falcons, I've been a fan since birth. I get emotionally invested in them. Like I said I cried when My Moreno left. I LOVE watching him. Ah! I'm really hoping we will do amazing this year. Hoping my Gurley Man & Mr. Marshall come out in full force and do just as well as, if not better than, they did last year. The 2 of them were rookies last year and BLEW everyone away. Gurley became the second truefreshman (second to Herschel Walker in 1980) to rush for more than 1000 yards! They (the Dawgs) came so, so, so close to getting to the SEC Champ. game. I really hope they can get there this year. And it's be better if they won. If Aaron Murray could leave college football on that note I'd be on cloud fackin' 20! Hunker down, boys! Who to watch on my team? Welp, our QB is pretty fabulous (Aaron Murray). Todd Gurley & Keith Marshall -aka Gurshall, combination of their names AND a nod to Herschel Walker (on of UGA's GREATESTS) whose number was 34, just so happens that Gurley is number 3 and Marshall is number 4. How crazy is THAT?!-, Michael Bennett, Chris Conley, Arthur Lynch. My biggest frustration with them is MIKE FUCKING BOBO. This little mother fucker needs a knock in the head! He has got to change it up a little bit. Mark Richt (head coach) really needs to step in and be like, "No, just..no." But alas, we sit and cuss the hell out of him. And John Theus, baby, I hope you've gotten it together a little more this year. No more false starts and such, please. Look we ain't perfect. No team is, I don't care who you are. We fuck up, sometimes a lot, sometimes more than I would care to admit. But they are an amazing team. We love them. We are sad, but happy, to see players graduate/enter the draft. To be a fan, a loyal fan, means sticking with them even when they are losing.
Let. me. tell. you.
Doug & I have fought over this. Don't get it twisted, Doug is a lifelong, loyal fan also, but he'll get pissed and discourage REAL quick, and he gets negative. I'm talking minutes into the game he "knows they are gonna lose" just because they've missed a few plays or something. UM NO! Give it a little more time. When I say we've fought, I mean it. I've had to walk away from him and watch the game in another room. There have been times where by the end of the game I'm just like, "I don't even want to hear you right now." It's serious business here. You would think we loved rival teams, but no, we love the same team.
But we will always be Dawgs. Always. & We're forever Gator Haters. Yellow who? WE RUN THIS STATE!
Dawgs to watch in the NFL: Knowshon Moreno (Broncos), TKUnoDos -Tavarres King (Broncos), Matthew Stafford (Lions), AJ Green (Bengals), Jarvis Jones (Steelers), Alec Ogletree (Rams), Cornelius Washington (Bears), Bacarri Rambo (Redskins), Orson Charles (Bengals), Kris Durham (Lions), Brandon Boykin (Eagles), MoMass Mohammad Massaquoi (Browns), Champ Bailey (Broncos), Akeem Dent (Falcons)...I mean, just to name a few ;) (I may have mentioned some different ones above.)
And a lot of SEC fans, no matter the team you belong to, will cheer for fellow SEC teams. Meaning should your team not make it to a bowl or championship game, but another SEC teams does, you want them to win. You want the SEC to win. But then there are those teams that you just cannot cheer for. Everyone has them.
You catch my drift there, right? ;)
Between the two, Pro & College, we usually prefer college. There is just something about college football in the south that really meshes well. It's synonymous with the south.
But I think we can all agree, college and professional alike, those damn referees are evil little bastards! I really feel bad for them, that's got to be a lot of pressure. Because man, I know how many times I have wanted to ring a refs neck for giving the game to the other team. Biggest pain in my ass!
And another think I don't like is how quickly change comes. I really don't like change. With the NFL you never know if a player you love will be traded or cut. With college you know they will leave in 4 or 5 years time, but you still don't like it. It's like impending doom. And it's even worse when they skip their senior year & go into the draft. You're sad, maybe a little mad, but then again happy to see how they do and where they go. And then injuries, I don't even want to think about injuries.
As for food...
We don't really have a plan when it comes to food for game days. To be honest I'd like to try to become organized enough to have things made at a timely manner and shit, but I'm just not there yet. And, we live in the south...flies like our food too, a lot. Leave stuff sittin' out too long & we'll... haha We do the typical wings &/or pizza & beers. Chips and dip. Sometimes burgers & fries. It really depends, but we don't do anything "special"...yet. If y'all have any recipe suggestions send them my way, I'll check 'em out.
Fashion:
Well, mainly sport your colors of course. In whatever way. From a tshirt to head to toe red & black (or whatever your colors are). A lot of girls down here go all out dressing but, I'm really just a jeans and tee girl. Jersey if I have it, but my moreno jersey doesn't fit anymore. Boo.
Predictions:
I kind of don't want to make predictions because you really never know how the season is actually going to go for any team. I'm excited but nervous as hell. But, in my perfect world, it would be Falcons winning the Super Bowl & Dawgs winning the NCAA Championship. :)
You know, I have never been to a professional football game. And I've only been to one Bulldog game. Crazy. That needs to change! Real quick like!
I honestly don't know what else to talk about.
So,...ya know...that's about it for now...
now since I'm 200% more ready for shit to kick off, I'm gonna just go read everyone elses posts and get more excited.
& I'll leave you with this!
GOOOO DAWGS! SIC 'EM! WOOF WOOF WOOF WOOF!
Love my Dawgs!
Any fellow Dawgs out there? Falcons, Broncos, Lions or Bengal fans?
Let me knowww!! We can be friends. :-)
