Sleepy Sissy...

I am sleepy.

It's almost 11:30 & I've already hit the 24 hour mark on being awake.

Which means little ole me=delusional.

So...you get sleepy brain because I can't be bothered to type up the post I was going to talk about.

Which was just my wishlist.

So that will be saved for next week.

SO

Sleepy Sissy says:

Damn you One Direction. A benefit of my staying Up All Night was that I was able to see their performance on The Today Show. And it was glorious. It made me want to go back to June even more to relive the Atlanta show. Look. I'm so sure you lovely ladies are probably tired of hearing me talk about them, but you are on my corner of the webz...soo.... ;) There were a couple of observations sleepy me made: 1- Someone was holding up an iPad in the audience...a FACKING IPAD. NO. Don't do that. You look dumb. I'm thousands of miles away & I giggled at you & then became annoyed. It's called a camera, invest it in, learn it, love it. 2- The number of fans that looks utterly bored bothered me, also the number of fans that were, I'm sure, tweeting, InstaG-ing, or texting bothered me also. You're young...like teens...at a free mini-concert with your "favorite" artist performing. WHATERYOUDOING?!  Whatever. Betches. I'm convinced that I can't be held responsible for the way I feel when I see 1D, Harry Styles in particular. His voice was so rugged, and raw today. ohmahlawd. Like, I have legitimately tried to fight the way I feel. I'm 25 & can assure you I'm happily married. But that boy leaves me with sexual frustration like you wouldn't believe. (Sorry Doug, should you ever see this) They make me feel like a teenager, it's like reverted back to those days when you see someone and it makes you all giddy & you grin ear to ear, and melt when they speak -er sing-, etc etc... Mom's a good sport for sitting through it. lol

Of course there were adult conversation moments like "I wonder how much school these kids miss for stuff like this" etc. & Mom did said that David Beckham was pretty (there was a David Beckham ad that they showed) So...yea..that's that....

I've been thinking about one of my old dogs lately. For the past maybe 3 or 4 days & I'm not entirely sure why. Her name was Princess, and she passed away entirely too early. I don't have a picture on hand or I'd post it. But as if thinking about & missing her wasn't bad enough, my ass decided that watching Frankenweenie for the first time in the middle of the night was a good idea. Warning: slight spoiler if you haven't watched it. Damn you, Frankenweenie. I bawled. I'm actually still not sure how I feel about it. Princess got hit by a car (same way Sparky died)..instatears. My heart broke. DAMMIT. And then he's brought back & then dies AGAIN (instatears again) & then is brought back...but still...it was bad timing. Even though I probably would have cried anyway, I think I cried way more because I had Princess on my mind.

I've been kind of  "off" this week. Everyone can tell. I've worried Doug to the point where he thinks it's him/us that's the issue. Not the case. Just an overall off-ness. I also blame Aunt Flow. That bitch. That fuckin' bitch. I'm sure you don't want to know, but Bitch declared internal warfare on my body earlier this week & I'm just now starting to recover. Not only was it not time for it, but it was fucking brutal. BRU-TAL. & I've just not been feeling anything, or really anyone. I hate feeling that way. I feel bad for feeling that way...which is counterproductive...feeling bad on top of feeling bad? Yea, no good. So I've kept to myself for the most part. Hoping that turns around though. PLEASE GO AWAY!

I kind of want to issue a little challenge to myself. Week of Water & Week of Sleep. What's that? Well, I kind of want to try to drink only (or 95%) water for a week. FYI: I inhale Mountain Dew, it's my drug. I hate going without it. HATE it! But, I do love water (& tea & koolaid & juices). But I want to try to cut it down just a bit...so I figured try a week of water..why a week? Cause it's not that freakin' long. Week of sleep? I'm a self proclaimed insomniac & a night owl. I do sleep, usually, around 7-8 hrs a night. But I sleep at different times. Which, technically is fine for me. But I'd like to re-adjust it a bit & at least try to wake up around 8am-ish, or 9am and feel rested, rather than anywhere from 10:30am-1pm. Why? Idk, I just want to. Plus if I can get a job, it will be helpful to have semi-"normal" hours. SOOO...here it is, posted here for accountability, folks. Bout to make ZzzQuil & water my friends...we'll see how I can do... (even though I stayed up all night last night, I was asleep by at least 10:30pm Wednesday night & woke up at around 10:30 am yesterday morning...so I got 12 hrs..aka too much...lol)

But...on Sunday, I don't think I can start the sleepy Sunday...or maybe I can. Sunday is the VMA's. I gots to watch the VMA's. I have to see 1D & I HAVE to see if NSYNC is actually gonna perform (I read somewhere that Lance himself said that it was just a rumor, so we'll see). Are any of you going to watch? Anyone planning to live tweet? I might, not sure. @bnb03 is me.

According to Peter & Cynthia, RHOA should be returning Late October! AHHHH! YAY!

EXCITING FRAMING HANLEY NEWS! There is a release date for their new album. FINALLY!

IG: FramingHanleyBand

We've been waiting for over a year. It's overdue, but I know it's going to be 100% well worth the wait. I already have 3 songs, & have heard a couple live, I know it's good stuff. I'm so stoked for our FHamily & anyone that's a FHan. And above that I'm so happy for and proud of those boys. I'm still devastaed that the bassist decided to leave, but I hope they find a good stand-in. I can't say replacement. No one will ever replace Luke, but they have to have a bassist. But they sacrifice so much time and energy to do this. They've had to hold down other jobs on top of trying to do this, on top of being family men (they're all married/engaged & 1's a father of 2 & 1's a soon-to-be daddy..as in a few week! EEK!) Anyway, they deserve it. As excited as I am, I'm also a bit nervous. My stomach is gonna fall out of my ass when I get that email about the music video. Makes me nervous now just thinking about it. Anyway, check out my favorite band. It's rock/alternative whatever the fack you want to call it, it's good. Their Twitter is @FramingHanley. If you want song suggestions, ask me, I'll point you to some I think most people should like. (Seriously, if you like music, give them the time of day, if you listen to the right song, I think you'll like them.)

That's IT! I have got to try to take a nap, or at least rest a little bit, before I decide what I'm doing with my afternoon/evening/night. Got my day started good with being able to...talk...to my husband after he woke up & then see him off to work. And then got to see my British beau perform on TV. I am good-to-go. I just want a Mt.Dew...but I'm gonna hold of for now. I brought a bottle of water to bed! YAY!

Bee-tee-dubs, that water/sleep thing will start Monday...because Monday is a wonderful day to start things for some reason. 

Okay I'm done for real this time.

I can't brain today.

I leave you with this.

 

Dammit.

It's okay, you don't have to understand it. A lot of people don't.

Excuuuuusseeee my frenchhh today!

TGIF, I hope everyone has a Fantastic Friday,...for real!

Lovins, shitheads!

♥♥♥

Sissy

Can you believe... it's time for a weigh-in?

Because I can't.

I can't believe... it's already Wednesday.
I can't believe... tomorrow will be a week since the tornado already.
I can't believe... that the Jason Aldean show has already come and gone. (I'll post about it soon.) PCD definitely kicked in.
I can't believe... that I'll be leaving on a solo trip in a few days...hellurrr anxiety, I don't like you!
I can't believe... that I slept until 10, pushes back everything I wanted to do today.
I can't believe... that I am still having damn issue with my McAfee and am now dealing with it, causes even more time to be wasted.
I can't believe... it's almost noon & I still haven't had breakfast. :-/ Thinking I might just have lunch & forget breakfast today.

I won't be surprised to see little to no change in any progress.
Not going to get anything done by barely exercising. The past week has been crazy between storms, a concert, and my car quitting on me. However, I did get some walking in. That most definitely counts. And I hit up the treadmill last night & am supposed to be walking today.
So,..yeah..
Not too much to say or update on. I still haven't picked back up on MFP.
My problem I have with it is it's so tedious to add every dang ingredient and make a meal out of that & then estimate how much you had...for every. dang. meal. I'll seriously have to spend half a day and sit at the computer & add the meals/snacks I eat most frequently to make it easier.

Last week: 163
Today: 162
Down 1 lb.
I may add measurements & pictures, but not sure if I'll post those on here.

That's all I got for today.
I'm still waking up & frustrated by this stupid computer.

Happy Humpday.
♥♥♥
Brandy

My no baby rambles.

Having a baby brings on a lot of fears in most women.
For me.
It's almost everything- haha.
I over think things way too much.
But the big ones are the worst.

I feel like when you are trying to conceive your first child in a somewhat planned out manner it gives you a lot of time to think of things.
To think out different scenarios.
My messed up brain? It thinks of the bad.

What if there is something wrong with my body?
What if there is something wrong & I don't find out until after I get pregnant?
After conception...
What if something is wrong or ends up being wrong with my baby?
What if something happens to it?
What if something happens to me?

I feel like it's no secret by now that I'm petrified of death.
I'm scared shitless to give birth. Not going to lie AT ALL.
I'm scared of something going wrong...with me and/or baby.

These, among many others, are things that you decide to deal with and risk when going into starting a family.
And as much as I am wanting that family.
I'm wanting the pitter patter of little brats.
I'm also not completely wanting to deal with any negativity.

Sounds selfish, right?
I can't help it though.

I know God wouldn't give you something you couldn't handle.
But I question that at the same time.
He may think I'm stronger than I do.
I don't do well with a lot of pressure.
I feel like he knows that.

That's another reason I keep trying to tell myself that it's all in His timing.
I've even started praying on it again.

But Dear God, as much as I know it's your timing. I don't want to wait too many more years before I stop trying. I'm talking next year or so. So all I'm saying is, give me some kind of sign. Either it's gonna happen or not. If not, I'd like to know sooner than later so I can move on with my life in the proper direction.

Not knocking annnyyone waiting to get preggers in their late 20's. But me, personally, I have always wanted to be a young mom. Meaning I want a baby like 3 years ago... And Doug does too.

I haven't written about it in a while, because I've been trying doing what everyone on the freaking universe thinks I should do...not thinking about it.
I appreciate that advice from every, I really do, because I know that exactly what I should do. Not think about, not dwell on it, not worry about it.
However, when a couple is trying...it's way--wayyy-- harder to not think about it. Because, well, we're trying. You have to freakin keep up with your period/ovulation for God sakes, how the shit am I really supposed to NOT think about it.

Let me give you a little insight. From my personal experience anyway.
When my period comes, I'm bummed, not because I'm bleeding, but because I know what it likely means. The fact that mine is irregular, sucks so much more.
When my period doesn't come ("on time"-when it's normal-), I get a little excited while telling myself not to get excited.-Because after all,  it's probably just back to it's irregular self-
Having sex? More than likely it's on my mind. If by wonderful chance it's not, chances are it was beforehand & probably will be afterward.
Out to eat; want a margarita? No I probably shouldn't.
Crazy methods? Handstand after sex anyone (okay that's a total exaggeration, lol. But you get my point. It is a funny visual though)
Thinking about/planning working out and eating healthy. Oh you want to get in shape for summer? No I want to get healthy so I can grow a healthy human.

I really, really do try not to think about it a lot. Unfortunately that comes with not taking my prenatals, not tracking my period or checking my ovulation.
But, I've finally started having a few drinks a little more often. I promise I don't do handstands post-bang session. Lately I've gotten better about keeping my mind on other things.
And I really do enjoy everything about not having a kid right now. (which is another bit of advice I always get-and appreciate-).
But it's still there.
And it'll stay there.

I WILL make my follow up appointment next week.
The one I was supposed to make for the second week of JANUARY.
And then maybe I'll have an actual update of sorts instead of just rambles.
I don't even know if this post made a lot of sense & I'm not reading back through to find out.

♥♥♥
B

Happy National Signing Day!

My TV will be on ESPNU until 2 listening to where these guys are going.

So far UGA has 29 new guys, with 13 being early enrollees.

Then after today I will be ready for Draft Day. 

59 Days til G-Day.

78 Days til Draft Day (day 1).

6 Months til NFL Preseason.

206 Kick off for Bulldogs.

Not really much to say today.

I did tell y'all yesterday that we are maybe getting ready to start working out.

Anyone have any workout suggestions?

My target areas to tone are belly, thighs, butt -obvi- back and arms. (so basically everything)

I have a whole board on pinterest like most of the universe does.

But if you have any that you have tried and like or see any results from, let me know! I'm starting out slow, so keep that in mind when suggesting. ;)

Follow me on Pinterest.

Oh & if you have My Fitness Pal, I updated my app last night and checked my username it is bnba03, so you can add me if you like. I still don't know when, how often, or if, I'll start using it again...but you can be my friend if you'd like. :) 

Oh remember how I said I hadn't been on it in a while...yea, homegirl  hadn't been on it since last MAY!

Haha.

Hope everyone has a great Wednesday.

Sorry so short, just not a lot on my mind at the moment.

Which is actually good.

Happy Humpday!

♥♥♥

Operation: I-I WERK OUT!

Welp,

It's getting to be that time where Doug and I are probably about to implement 

Operation: I-I WERK OUT!

LOL

I just thought of that & yes, I made myself giggle.

Now I'm going to have to tell him that & watch him shake his head at me because I'm such an enigma.

;)

I accompanied him to the doctor this morning. It was for his physical (cause I know you needed to know that crucial piece of info) & he asked me to come along to make sure he didn't forget to ask or tell anything.

His doctor walked in & her first words were "you look like you lost weight, have you lost weight?" & she was so happy about it.

He has lost a little. And I told her that we planned to try losing more.

Made her happy.

Over the weekend I made him sit down with me and scroll through pinterest to look for new recipes to try. So we can try some new things, and so we're not always scratching our heads when it comes to supper, or repeating meals too much or eating hamburger helper for the 9830497 time during the week. lol
Now I just have to actually cook some of the things!

We didn't exactly pick healthy looking things, but there are changes that can be made to most recipes that can make them healthier. 

And I won't cook anything that's too bad anyway since we still live at home.

Which is actually beneficial to our eating habits sometimes because my dad has diabeties and my mom has to watch what she eats because of her heart. 

(I am not saying I'm glad that they have any medical issues, I'm saying the fact that their lifestyle change  as far a eating and such affects us all, which is a good thing.)

We still don't do as well and we could (and should) but we've (the whole family) changed a lot around over the past few years. And by few I mean like 5 or 6. 

SO...

I figure since we are finally talking a little more seriously about it, and we're hopefully going to have the basement done, or done enough, soon. We should be able to start some kind of exercising. 

Hopefully.

...I wonder if once we get it done, maybe I'll call it an apartment since it will hopefully look for like one...I just don't always like saying basement when I talk about where we live. lol.

Anyway, trailing off subject!

I haven't decided if I'm going to go the My Fitness Pal route again or not.

I like it, it helps to see how many calories I do consume, but I'm not one of those people who are all "OMG I can only have 5 more calories for today!"

Newp.

I still eat what I want. Just smaller portions, which means I've had several days where I've gone over. And it won't be any different this time around. ha. But I might still use it. I don't know. I don't even know the last time I used it! My username for it BNBA, I think. (if you look it up, let me know if that's right, lol if it isn't I'll check later.)

But yea, so that's that.

I'm ready to start trying to put some of those damn workouts I keep pinning to use!

They're gonna kill me! You just watch!

I'm gonna try kinda of hopping on that health/fitness train with some of you ladies. I've jumped on and off of it over the last I'd say 2.5-3 years.

(I even have a Tumblr just for weight loss/fitness/health that I obviously haven't been on in agesss.) 

Maybe I can stay on this time since Hubbers is gonna do it with me.

So, I'm going to continue to find inspiration in a few personal friends I know, and all of you ladies that are on the road to getting healthy! And Pinterest, of course. ha.

So yea, that's my ramblings for today.

Exciting, huh?!

Now, I gots shit to do, man!

OHH!

I gots buttons!

I made 2, but I've only posted one right now.

It's over on the right...over there -->
Nothing major, but yeeee!
If you guys want to see the other one, just ask, I'll post it too.

KLOVEYOUBYE!
♥♥♥